I felt as though I was drowning in tar as my life came crashing down around me.
Self-love is a very important part of daily life, but for many it gets skipped over. Sometimes it gets brushed off due to a lack of time, because there are other priorities like kids, work and chores.
I want to say I'm sorry for such a downer of a post but I'm not. It's important to know what the depths of depression is really like. So, today I'm going to be vulnerable and share with you a glimpse behind the curtain into the darkness of depression.
Despite my depression I have always thought of myself as an optimistic person, until the day my therapist told me to stop...
Walking out those doors was terrifying and liberating all at the same time. I had been discharged from an inpatient unit after weeks of stabilization. I was free to make my own choices and flush my own toilet! While, I was also terrified of losing the stability that I had missed from treatment. I did not want to relapse, not again.
"What size dress do you want?" the lady asked me from behind the counter. Don't have a panic attack, don't have a panic attack, I kept thinking to myself as I replied, "I don't know. What sizes do you have?" The lady went on to explain all the different sizes that they offered while I... Continue Reading →
I woke up this morning feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I couldn't calm myself down and started feeling shameful and guilty. I've been so tired from a week of bad sleep that I just felt so physically and emotionally exhausted. No matter how much I tried I couldn't get myself out of bed. I ended up... Continue Reading →
I had just gotten out of my car and was walking toward the house when our sweet elderly neighbor asked me how my day had been. I mentioned that I was just getting back from my weekly meeting with my dietitian and she replied, "Oh, I should do that because I eat way to much."... Continue Reading →