I have known for years that I struggle with depression, but it is still hard to believe. I never wanted this. Growing up I was negatively affected by people with depression. I told myself that I would never be like them so as not to also hurt those around me.
When baby number 3 came along I tried desperately to convince myself and others that I still had my crap together. But like quicksand, I was sinking deeper the more I tried to fight it.
I want to say I'm sorry for such a downer of a post but I'm not. It's important to know what the depths of depression is really like. So, today I'm going to be vulnerable and share with you a glimpse behind the curtain into the darkness of depression.
I woke up this morning feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I couldn't calm myself down and started feeling shameful and guilty. I've been so tired from a week of bad sleep that I just felt so physically and emotionally exhausted. No matter how much I tried I couldn't get myself out of bed. I ended up... Continue Reading →