I did not serve a mission. I wanted to, but didn’t. I had my papers all ready to go but as I was about to submit them I had the strong impression that I shouldn’t. That was a difficult experience but looking back I am grateful that I didn’t. I know it would have been much harder to be a successful missionary with undiagnosed depression and eating disorder.
I have since come to terms with not going on a mission because I learned something very valuable and section eleven of “The Living Christ” reminded me of that.
We testify that He will someday return to earth. “And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together” (Isaiah 40:5). He will rule as King of Kings and reign as Lord of Lords, and every knee shall bend and every tongue shall speak in worship before Him. Each of us will stand to be judged of Him according to our works and the desires of our hearts.
Elder Neil L. Anderson’s talk Preparing the World for the Second Coming talks about how preparing for the second coming includes doing missionary work. He explained:
The Lord has long spoken of the necessary preparations for His Second Coming. To Enoch, He declared, “Righteousness will I send down out of heaven; and truth will I send forth out of the earth, … and righteousness and truth will I cause to sweep the earth as with a flood, to gather out mine elect from the four quarters of the earth.”11 The prophet Daniel prophesied that in the latter days the gospel would roll forth unto the ends of the earth as a “stone [that is] cut out of [a] mountain without hands.”12 Nephi spoke of the latter-day Church as being few in number but spread upon all the face of the earth.13 The Lord declared in this dispensation, “Ye are called to bring to pass the gathering of mine elect.”14 My young brethren, your mission is a great opportunity and responsibility, important to this promised gathering and linked to your eternal destiny.
After being told after lots of prayer that I should go on mission I had months of depression and feeling lost before I realized something. Even if a mission was not in my cards, life is a mission in itself that I have been called to serve on. I spent that time focusing on my scripture study and building a closer relationship with my Savior.
Then a couple months later, I got called to serve as the 1st counselor in my single’s ward Relief Society Presidency. While I was being set apart I was told that this calling is my mission and to focus on it. So, I put more effort into that calling than I ever had with any other calling.
Since then, I have been able to share the gospel in many random places including work, the treatment center, school, and this blog. I never know where my mission “transfers” are going to take me next.
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