The One Major Way an Eating Disorder Lies to You Everyday

Day 2 of the 12 Days of CHRISTmas

I hated it. I hated it so much! I could not stand anything about my own body to the point that I was willing to die to change it.

Like many people out there, I struggle with an eating disorder. So, you could say my body and I are not exactly on good terms. kyle-broad-29486This made me feel shameful as I began studying section two of “The Living Christ” which reads:

He was the Great Jehovah of the Old Testament, the Messiah of the New. Under the direction of His Father, He was the creator of the earth. “All things were made by him; and without him was not anything made that was made” (John 1:3).

Before Jesus Christ had even came to earth he was an important part of our existence. He was the one that created this world that we live on. Not only did he create this world but also each one of our bodies. My body. He created my body.

President Russell M. Nelson’s talk entitled “Jesus the Christ: Our Master and More” explained this when he said:

This hallowed Creator provided that each of us may have a physical body, uniquely individual yet in many respects comparable to every other human body. Just as a well-educated musician can recognize the composer of a symphony by its style and structure, so a well-educated surgeon can recognize the Creator of human beings by the similarity of style and structure of our anatomy. Individual variations notwithstanding, this similarity provides additional evidence and deep spiritual confirmation of our divine creation by our same Creator. It enhances the understanding of our relationship to Him:

“The Gods went down to organize man in their own image, in the image of the Gods to form they him, male and female to form they them.” (Abr. 4:27–28).

I know that my body is a sacred gift from my Savior but in the depths of my eating disorder I did not give a care. I hated everything about it and needed to change it. I was convinced that everything in my life would get better if I lost weight. Now that I have gone through treatment and am on the recovery path. I realize that those are lies that my eating disorder tells me.

I have to be honest, I still do not like my body… but I don’t always hate it anymore. Instead I focus on aspects about my body that I do appreciate. At one point during treatment they made me stay in wheel chair all day for health reasons. Thank goodness it was only for a day because it was awful! Truly awful! I had to be pushed around by a care technician all day. I was confined to one seat all day long which made it awkward to eat at the dining table, relax during free time, and even go to the bathroom. I once got left after our short sacrament service at the center when the technician forgot me! I was stranded there, like hello? Anybody out there? I wasn’t kidding when I said it was no fun.

As awful as that day was it did help me more appreciate the things that my body can do. I can walk on my own. I can do art. I can snuggle with my kitten, or my husband, or both. I can write. I can read. I can feel. I could not do the things that I enjoy without my body!

Every single day I still struggle with my body and in some ways, I always will. I try to remember that it is a sacred gift that was created for me so that I could have an earthly experience here and now. I need my body. And knowing that can sometimes help me be grateful for it and the Savior who created it.

Read Day 3 of the 12 Days of CHRISTmas by clicking HERE

Read Day 1 of the 12 Days of CHRISTmas by clicking HERE

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5 thoughts on “The One Major Way an Eating Disorder Lies to You Everyday

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  1. Hang in there. This is a long road you’re on and so rewarding, but Satan will hold onto this weakness and use it often as you recover. I’m long on the other side now and I have faith in you. You will find success as you stay close to Christ. God bless you!

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