The Greatest Gift (Day 12)

We walked down the streets of Temple Square. The lights sparked as they surrounded me. The cold biting my exposed cheeks. While standing in front of the temple my activity days leader handed me a shiny little golden box with a bow on top. All of us girls were so excited to see what could be... Continue Reading →

Being Awakened (Day 10)

The shiny tray comes around to me. I grab a piece of bread as I pass the tray to the person next to me. As I partake of the bread I think about how long it has been since I wore a dress and sat in a physical chapel. It was nice to hear the... Continue Reading →

Looking in a Mirror (Day 9)

It's difficult to look in a mirror. I see all of my imperfections and dwell on them. I constantly feel as if I am never good enough. I continually compare myself to everyone around me. I don't forgive myself for mistakes. I think I am unworthy for love when I sin. You know what? I... Continue Reading →

A Special Witness (Day 8)

As a child I hated general conference. It was soooo long and soooo boring. I could not stand it. The only good thing about it was getting to stay in my pj's all day long. As I've gotten older I have come to enjoy conference in a way that my younger self would never have understood.... Continue Reading →

Faith in Christ (Day 6)

You want the truth? Okay, the answer is no. No, I haven't. I never have seen Jesus Christ. I've felt his presence. I've read his words. But I have never seen him face to face. The sixth part of the “The Living Christ” reads: Of the Living Christ, the Prophet Joseph wrote: “His eyes were as a... Continue Reading →

Death, the Conquered (Day 5)

That night is such a vivid memory but at the same time a complete blur. There was a lot of crying to the point I didn't even realize when I was or wasn't anymore. I felt deeply sad. I had never before lost someone to death and didn't know how to feel.  Death is pretty... Continue Reading →

His Creation (Day 2)

I hated it. I hated it so much! I could not stand anything about my own body to the point that I was willing to die in order to change it. Like many people out there, I struggle with an eating disorder. So, me and my body are not exactly on good terms which made... Continue Reading →

What Child is This? (Day 1)

Colored lights go up that reflect off the ornaments. The smell of pine fills the room.Holiday songs are constantly playing wherever I go. It is as if the very air around me has changed. It is the Christmas season and I can see it all around me, but do I feel it? This year has... Continue Reading →

I need you to know that I am struggling…

As I lie in bed, I feel the warm tears flow down my face as the fan whirls above me instantly cooling the streams my tears leave behind as they run off my face onto my pillow. I lie there completely numb to my surroundings. Do I know why I'm crying? No. It just feels like... Continue Reading →

Falling In Love… With My Imperfect Body

Regardless of what my weight has been or how long I took to get ready for the day, every time I walk past a mirror I notice the physical imperfections. I think to myself that I am so ugly and fat that nothing I do can improve that. Then, I sadly continue on with my... Continue Reading →

Am I making the LDS LGBT suicide delemma worse?

  This post is about something very personal to me, so I hope you can bear with me. Also, I am not going to pretend for a second that I know anything about what it is like to be an LGBT member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, but I feel that... Continue Reading →

Should I stay or should I go on a mission? It was not my decision…

I was 19 when the age changed happened and women could leave on a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints at that age. Let me tell you, I had no clue what to think when I heard that! It was an exciting time and everyone around me was putting in their... Continue Reading →

Understanding the new church policy for children of same-sex couples

I read so many comments from this article of active members of the church feeling confused and hurt by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints not allowing children of same-sex couples to get baptized. It's okay to be confused and hurt! It does sound awful! Let me see if I can help spread some light... Continue Reading →

Dumbledore + Sister Linda K. Burton = More happiness in my marriage

I am a huge Harry Potter fan! Like I was completely obsessed with it growing up to the point that I slept with all the books under my pillow and as punishments my mom threatened to take away my Harry Potter books. I am not joking... One of my favorite popular quotes from the book... Continue Reading →

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